240507

This morning, I had a dream. Not as real as the dream in the jungles. But this dream concerns 2 of my friends. Wondering... how come I will have such a dream.

In the dream, she finally accepted his courtship of 8 years. And they are finally together. At last. Maybe it is the length of years that amazes me. Maybe it is their compatibility that surprises me. But I really do hope that it won't be just a dream but a reality in true nature.

Yesterday, I Finally had the chance to watch Spiderman 3. It is a very good show. Though I am still pondering over what my brother says. "It is the best and yet the worst show." Maybe I just am not a good analyser. But to me, the essence of Spiderman is his emotions.

And this movie has captured his emotions well. It is not his fighting. It is not his struggles. But the way he handles situations. Look at me. And look at you. Would you have done the same if you are him?

It is really a great responsibility to carry. To save the people of New York City. To keep your own identity. To excel in your studies. To take care of your aged guardian. Wow... He is really a role model.

The whole show talks about this word: "choice". How many times have I heard it over the pulpit? How many times have I read about it in Christian books? It is because of choice that we lived. If God don't give us a choice, we will all be robots. Nothing to be awed at.

Thank you for this show to emphasize the choices that I have to make no matter what it takes.

220507

Had my first interview after my Reservist training. I applied for admin assistant position at Philips Electronics.

New word I learnt today while watching TV show -

Addled: To muddle; confuse

"My brain is a bit addled by whiskey"

10th day of ICT - 180507

Finally! Last day of this field exercise. I guess I am also getting sick, I am now trying to drink lots and lots of water as I have sensed one symptom which is thirstiness. It is not those thirstiness which it can be quenched by drinking but it is those fever, cold n cough combination. And also finally, 8 hours of sleep again. Ha ha... But this is short-lived. Gotta find a job fast too...

9th day of ICT - 170507

Faithful and helpful are process words. They are not the start or end of a process. That is what I learnt from a reflection of a small rebuke by my sergeant.

"You think everyone here is not shagged?"
"If you don't want to help, then don't help. Go and rest at a corner."

I have been helpful since the start of ICT. But until this day, I am really tired. I wanted to rest. Can I don't help? Then God reminded me that being helpful is helpful all the way. As long as you are not helping for one moment, you are not being helpful. That goes for faithfulness. Interesting that I can learn all these in one ICT. And I have also learnt that knowledge is vital for being helpful.

"If you don't know what you are doing, how can you help others?"

Part 1 has ended. But for part 2, it seems that it will end tonight and for part 3, the exercise might end at Jurong Camp. Sigh!

8th day of ICT - 160507

Waiting... All of us are waiting for part one of this exercise to ened. Rumours has it that the exercise will end on Thursday. Well, who knows? By Thursday, I shall know.

7th day of ICT - 150507

Went through the whole day, tired and bored. After the 'virtual' dream, I feel discouraged that I am still here in the jungles. Today, I feel every bit the same as my NSF days but my status is different. I am a NS man now, doing NSF stuff. Sianz... :(

6th day of ICT - 140507

It is a very 'xiong' day. The things I have to do is getting 'haywire. It is not what I expected. Don't know y it is so. Soon after I was talking to 3 ppl. I was sharing to someone that Melvin knows everything and anything. He is a very knowledgable person. Then Liru spoke something. I couldn't catch what she wants to say. I was then woken up by my sergeant. I was then thrown back into reality It is so real, the dream.

I thought that I have been with Melvin and Liru having a great fellowship. Never did I expect that I am still in the jungles training. Oh, a sudden outburst of emotions came within me. What happened to me?

I FINALLY PASSED MY IPPT!

I am so happy today. Ha ha... I finally passed my IPPT. I was worried from Tuesday until now. Because my officer did not tell us what our 2.4 km run timing is. So, I am afraid that I will fail once again and have to go for RT ( Remedial Training ). But I got what I want. Yeah...

SIT-UP(rep) SBJ(cm) CHIN-UP (rep) SHUTTLE RUN (sec) 2.4KMRUN
39 221 7 10.0 12.19

Because I got 18 points, I got a $200 dollar incentive. Yeah...

5th day of ICT - 110507

Finally last day of the first week. Next week, finally start exercise.

4th day of ICT - 100507

We reported at 0700 at Jurong Camp which is further than NTU. And asked to wait for half an hour before we can draw our weapons. But today, it is quite ok. As I expect that we will prepare the stores before the exercise next week. However, I was thinking about one situation for a friend.

He is a teacher and he is now in reservist. The sad thing is that he has to come in spite of his wife pregnant for 7 months le. Hmm... I am thinking: Can I suggest that for those who has wife's being pregnant deferring their NS 1 year later? It will be fairer to them as during the months of pregnancy, the wife do surely needs the husband's presence to be around. Isn't that so?

As it is a reservist unit, the environment that I am exposed to is quite dialect based. I learnt so much dialect in there. Environment is important. It might change ppl's destiny. Walk with the chickens and you will be a chicken. Move with the eagles and fly like an eagle.

3rd day of ICT - 090507

When I booked in today, some of the people made fun of me. Ha ha... I don't know why lah. But when I asked them, they told me that I have a "easily bullied" face. I guess it is also one of the reasons y at that time I can't be a successful teacher as yet. Hee..

Moving on in the morning, I went to see the MO ( Medical Officer ). I need to bandage my knee. It has been getting increasingly hurting and I can't sleep much during the night.

As belows:

After I came back, one of them remarked jokingly that I am tryin to escape. But well, I know that it is a joke. But he keeps repeating and repeating. So tired of it. Sigh!

We then went on to setting up radio stuff. Boy, did I know what will happen in the near future. After setting up, we waited for 4 hours for instructions to book out. Never did we know that it is a early dismissal for us as there is another section of our guys who cannot book out at 11 pm.

Sigh! Ns is about waiting and waiting!

2nd day of ICT - 080507

This morning, I have my first ICT IPPT. In case for any one who does not know what it is, it is actually my In Camp Training Individual Proficiency Physical Test. I hope that I can pass this IPPT so that I do not need to go for RT ( Remedial Training ). And I injured myself in the process. It is actually during my shuttle run which I injured my knee. I skidded as always during shuttle run and this time, I scraped against the floor. So u can guess how bad my knee is now.

They are as belows:

After taking off the self-applied bandage, ...

Looks quite bad rite? Anyway, after the IPPT, I have my component training. And it lasted till quite late. I reached home around 0030. And tml I still need to book in by 0730. Woah... how long I will last. I don't know. I shall leave it to them and may God bless my body physically and mentally.

1st day of ICT - 070507

Today is a very tiring day. It has been some day I went back to National Service. And this time, I went for reservist. Is it fun? Nope, it is not. But it is definitely filled with briefings, briefings and more briefings and lectures, and lectures and lectures. I almost fell asleep at some of the briefings and lectures. Don't know y they have to be so elaborate about it. But anyway, I felt great as I met many of my past officers.



Because I cannot bring in a camera phone, so I have to take a photo of myself in NS uniform at home.

050507

Have to vs Want to Attitude

Yesterday, I was reflecting on why last time, there is a "want to" attitude but now it seems to be a "have to" attitude.

As I was thinking, I thought of the life story I always shared with my students.

When I was Pri 6, my father compelled me to do maths questions and I hate it. Even though I got A* for my PSLE, I don't like maths at all. I feel that this is a "have to" attitude because of duty and persuasion. The whole of Sec 1 and Sec 2, I played computer game all the way. Until when I was at Sec 3, I was quite angry at myself for getting 50 plus in my maths and science. And that is how I keep on practising Maths everyday. For that, it is definitely a "want to" attitude.

There is a pattern somehow. But what prompted me to change from a "have to" to a "want to" attitude?

040507

Someone told me yesterday that I don't actually need a card reader for my phone. There is a USB cable for it. And what I need to do for my photos is to connect the cable from my phone to my pc. And I did not know that until yesterday. Few months, I have been thinking of buying a card reader instead. Oh no, this goes to show how important reading a manual is.

And that parallels with reading the Bible ( which is equivalent to a manual for mankind ).

But anyway, I wanna post some pictures which I owe to my NTU colleagues. Hey dom, pls feel free to download these pictures k? And Sin May really is pretty leh.. U all don't always say she not pretty.

Sin May n I















Dom n I















The whole gang of us

















Sin May n I outside the Office of Research















Taking another picture again

030507

Can't believe what happened yesterday.

Something disgusting happened. And for the benefit of readers of my blog, I shall not reveal it out.

I really wanna complain about the service of Esso staff. What they could have done is to help me buy what I require from the Tampines Mall and not direct me that there is a mall. With the mess I am in, how could I go to the Mall? Can't they go an extra mile? Sigh!

But anyway, I really thank God for this. It is close to my tuition student's place and I can get a change of clothing from him. Thank God, Thank God.

020507

I have found quite a few videos of N182. Here are their URL.

A tribute to our dear cgl Melvin Lye: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VX_ecIuoz5M

We performed during KTV: 1) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=APNO04hdL74

2) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SEu8Eg3X7QA