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Some of the feelings I had:

Not going to Asia conference these few days. guess that I am constantly distracted by my own feelings. It will be good to put it aside but I can't. Guess that I need quality time with people now and not going to attend sessions after sessions.

Felt so tired. Sigh! My mother is exhibiting irrational behaviour. Though she is conscious, but I really dont' understand the reasons. Is it normal for people with brain surgery? Sigh!

At least I can understand Eliza's feelings each time she went to the hospital to visit her father. Feelings are drained. But as a professional, it will be for the best not to drag your feelings to work. Ya, I told wan ee that I don't want to tell many people about it cause I know that I will be overly dependent on others. It is time to stand up.

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Been some time I blogged. Who will expect that I will? Today I went and chanced upon my mum's neurosurgeon. From what I hear, her white blood cells are high, implying that there is bacteria infection. However, they cannot find any bacteria. So now she is given two strong medicine to kill any bacteria. Hopefully, all is well.

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Is it my fault that my off day is on Thursday?
Why am I asked to take leave on Friday and go for Friday cell group?
I have said specifically that I can only go to Thursday cell group.
That is the arrangement when I multiply out of the cell group.
I know these will happen when I decide to join this company.
But I hope that I am wrong.
I know that all the leadership training, all the outings, all the fellowships, I might not join in.
I know that, I know that.
I want to prove to myself that people will not reject you because you can only join in cell group or service few times.
But it seems that I am wrong.
Outreach. Outreach. Outreach.
Seems that it is all hogwash to me. A pure illusion.
People out there, not all, can accomodate to the timings of religion. I want to show that it is possible to outreach even though it is not possible. But sigh!
Think that it is just not possible le.
Sigh...
Disappointed.
Not disappointed in God. But disappointed in myself for not believing in myself.

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Ip man 2 is nice... A day of first beginning. Anyway, it won't be easy since I am not a confident person. Not as confident as Ip man.. Haha..

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Yesterday night at 3 am, I watched with Eujean, Melvin and their cg members. For all my students, yes, I finally watched a movie with people le. Iron Man 2 is simply fantastic. Though I am sitting at row 3. But it is definitely worth the money. Do watch even if you have not watched Iron Man 1. I have not watched Iron man 1 but I believe that I should be renting it. Do watch k?