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3 things that affect my heart recently :

Izzit that ugly? When I wore a blue checkered shirt to class, some students commented that it looks like cowboy attire. Some say it is plain ugly. A present from a good friend and it is said until like that. Sigh! Sometimes I do wonder what is the definition of nice from the students. What I thought is nice, they say is not nice.

Swine flu hit the world just like that. Because of that, I am still very unsure whether I am allowed to go Japan. My parents asked about it. At the moment, it seems safe enough. But if it hit Japan, I think my wish for 13 years has to be postponed. Sigh!

My 2 students was arrested recently. One hit another person two punches and one of it twisted the other person's nose. Sigh! The other one is arrested for stealing and he has been put on bail le... what are they trying to do? this year is o level year and yet got such things... can't they learn???

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2 days ago, I was chatting with 2 Japanese SOT students. One of them is Emi's sister. Sigh! Thinking about Emi brings back memories. But well, that is in the past. There is really no point in pursuing this since there is still a language barrier I have not gotten pass over. Anyway, when I chatted to them, I really felt that my Japanese is so so inadequate. It is still not good enough even when I am taking full time Japanese. Arrgh... Must ganbatte ne...

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Submitted my name to the church website. Work has been adjusted to fit the mission trip. Now is hoping that nothing will go wrong till after the mission trip. Even though I will be away for 3 days for the mission trip, but to adjust to those days, it takes 3 weeks of my off days to substitute for those 3 days. Being a teacher at tuition centre is sometimes not worth it sia... But anyway, was thinking for next year. How can I plan my schedule in such a way that I can go off without disrupting much of my work? Hmm...

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Today is a day of reflection. Since my student is not available today, I visited some ex members and a member. But the member did not answer my call so eventually cannot find him. Been a while since I saw my ex members. Quite miss them though. After meeting them, went to fort canning. A place where my troubles are momentarily off. I have been going to the place since secondary school days. Like the place lots. Then came down to the Christian bookshop. I was quite stunned to see one of my favourite bookshop to be closing down. It is one of the places I like to be at. In July, either it will relocate or it will not be doing any business le. On my way to City Hall Mrt Station, was thinking of relationship and stuff. Actually to say the truth, I am not really prepared for any relationship. Though I hope to be in a relationship and quite envy couples, but deep down I am really really not prepared at all.

Recently, I have been watching a few dramas. One of it is this drama called Life. This drama delves into the dark side of high school life. The story focuses mainly on bullying, but it also touches on subjects such as self-mutilation, suicide, and rape. Kitano Kii stars as Ayumu Shiiba, one of the students bullied by a group of classmates led by Ayumu's former friend, Manami Anzai (Fukuda Saki).

What is it so fun about ganging up on people? Maybe people realise strength comes in numbers. Since they are not so strong individually, together they are a mighty army. And when emotional intelligence is not so high, bullying comes into place. After finishing watching this drama, I was thinking of the fact that the Pharisees also come together and tried to bully Jesus into submission. But well, they thought they have succeeded when Jesus was at the Cross. Never do they know that it is the Plan.